28.8.04
Its been eons since i last submitted an entry. Life has been harsh lately, pressures flooding in from so many different sides. If it's trying to cripple me, i cant deny that it has served its purpose. A day without upsets is virtually unseen of nowadays. If it hadnt been for him and my friends, i'd have thrown in the white towel. Now im worried about ck. It's not him to share his woes with others and it is difficult to fathom what goes on in his mind. I'm willing to render help, because he has done way too much for me, but it seems that he'd rather don a shell-hard facade than to inflict worry on others. Little does he realise that by keeping mum about his problems, he's not lessening any worry. The least i can do these days is to keep him smiling, even if he's still hurt inside...listen, im not entirely egotistical with you guys without a reason...
I severely miss the first three months of jc school life, when all relationships were kept platonic. Benchmarks werent set for any of us and we had times of great fun together...especially with Rockers...it was close to being trouble-free. But as always, things can never be the same again.
This route has been mapped out for me, for i'm destined to emerge from my over-protected home environment to be exposed to the multi-faceted world. I've always believed in a silver lining, and I'm certain that this chain of turbulent events are meant for a deeper purpose. It could be to testify the strength of relationships or it could be to drive me to be a better person. In any case, ive faltered severely and i'm going to change things. But through all the ups and downs, im thankful for your presence...for walking with me throughout. To the three darlings, im eternally grateful to u all too.
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